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tracy has a broken vagina!! <3 [12 Jul 2005|11:16pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

I am 70% Asshole/Bitch.
Sort of Assholy or Bitchy!
I am abrasive, some people really hate me, but there may be a group of other tight knit assholes and bitches that I can hang out with and get me. Everybody else? Fuck ‘em.

cute hehe.

yeah so. alicia calls me today. & i obviously know why. because that little incedent with her car, yeah well i have to pay half of it because it was an accident & her mom's all pissed. so that's 1,000 of dollars that i do not have. & my parents aren't helping me (i don't blame them at all though.) so now i have to get a job. good thing she's not my best friend anymore or then she'd REALLY not be my best friend.

gotta love billerica <3

so then she invites me to her birthday party. with people i can't stand to be around. (ilu ally). i just don't know.
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nothing else wont do without you i can't live. [12 Jul 2005|02:29am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

i had a passionate night with jon.

one of the emotionally best nights.

yeah i bet you have no idea what i'm talking about.

too bad i can't explain it online.

anyways. tomorrow i'm hanging with kim & kaitlin.
only til 4 though cause i gotta come home & clean my room.
i'm painting it friday/saturday. i still don't know what color.
any ideas??? jon said green. i like green. maybe there's something more original... ?

& wednesday is me & jon's 6month. which is big. that's half a year :) well, the 17th would be our one year & 3months if we weren't such sluts in between ;).

& friday is tegan & sara. anyone going??? it's in somerville. i've never been to a show in somerville. this should be interesting. i hope i don't rape sara because i really want to. something about sarah's *moura* i guess ;)

too bad jon's working saturday. we never spend a whole day together. i hate his goddamn work. i'm becoming so... attached? to him. i figured i'd get sick of him after a month. but it's been 6, & i'm still needing it more. :)


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nobody ever calls me to hangout anymore. [11 Jul 2005|03:43pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

well when i start having band practices, nobody's invited for the first 5 months except josh.

so i'm sick of always reading other couple's away msgs saying "in boston", or "at the beach". yeah. well me & my boyfriend go to the mall everyday. because he works everyday.

this summer is fucking boring. & i'm never invited to anything.

& i wish the ambulance was back together because at least it was fun. & i really miss steve's mom & gizmo. i'll probably never see them again. i don't see how i would.

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new band new band new band !1%!^& [10 Jul 2005|11:08pm]
[ mood | amused ]


that will be my band. it's called carrot diamond, after a bright eyes song. & the song playing up now is played & sung by ally. i only helped her come up with the things to write about.

i think i'm just gonna play jon's minichord thing for it. cause i can't play anything else. it's a joke band anyways, but still. it's probably gonna get a lot of people wicked pissed. especially the song i'm gonna write about dissing scene chicks (which means i will be looking in the mirror as i write down the words!). it's funny, i promise :)

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some of my answers are funny. [09 Jul 2005|03:12pm]

1. gum: orbit & big red.
2. restaurant: the lemon tree actually.
3. drink: dr. pepper. or any soda with cherry flava
4. season: summer
5. type of weather: hot, but not muggy.
6. emotion: kissyface
7. what to do on a half day: sleep
8. late-night activity: UM HELLO?! TOO EXPLICIT.
9. sport: i'd rather die
10. city: i enjoy boston, but there's a lot more to do in new york, esp. if you're unfamiliar with it.
11. store: the gap & old navy

_______When was the last time you_______

12. cried: almost last night, because jon forgets about me ;'(
13. played a sport: never in my life.
14. laughed: talking to randy at 2am probably lol
15. hugged someone: last night
16. kissed someone: last night
17. felt depressed: today.
18. felt overworked: not in 7 months.
19. faked sick: 180 school days i have tried.
20. lied: today

_______What was the last_______

21. word you said: bye
22. thing you ate: chinese
23. song you listened to: city girl - t & s
24. thing you drank: water
25. place you went to: jon's
26. movie you saw: elf!! <3
27. movie you rented: the hostage

_______Who was the last person you_______

28. hugged: jon
29. cried over: jon most likely
30. kissed: jon.
31. danced with: hm... i don't know..
32. shared a secret with: nobody
33. had a sleepover with: jon
34. called: jon
35. went to a movie: in december, jon bob, brittany!!
36. saw: my cat
37. were angry with: jon
38. couldn't take your eyes off of: eben :)
39. obsessed over: tegan & sara lol

_______Have you ever_______

40. danced in the rain: YES!
41. kissed someone: yes
42. had sex: yes
43. drank alcohol: yes
44. partied 'til the sun came up: yes many times
46. gone too far on a dare: yes
47. spun until you were immensely dizzy: no
48. taken a survey quite like this before: yes

_______My life_______

49. name: jasmine
50. gender: bitch
51. birthday: february 27
52. relationship status: for life.
53. nationality: 1/2 italian, 1/3 french canadian, 1/3 irish, 1/3 native american.
54. occupation: lover.


55. i'm feeling: veclept (sp?)
56. i'm listening to: mates of state
57. i'm doing: myself
58. i'm talking to: ally
59. i'm craving: cookies
60. i'm thinking of: what me & jon are doing tonight
61. i'm hating: being cold


62. love is: wonderful
63. my first love: right now i think
64. my current love: jonny
65. love or lust: my lust turned into love which means- love at first sight!
66. best love song: puella quam amo est pulchra - bright eyes. (sorry if i spelt it wrong.), or if you fell - azure ray
67. is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: not at all.
68. when love hurts: hurt the loving
69. is there such thing as love @ first sight: yes !

_______Opposite Same sex_______

70. turn ons: tale, pale, skinny, dark hair, light eyes, big lips, jon burke.
71. turn offs: everything but jon.
72. do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: NOT AT ALL.
73. what kinda hairstyle are you into?: jon's
74. what is the sweetest thing a girl/guy can do for you?: draw me pictures to put on my wall. write songs about me. write me love letters.
75. where do you go to meet new people?: myspace!!!2%!%! LYKE YA!H!%!
76. are you the type of person to HOLLa and ask for numbers?: NOT AT ALL.

_______Picky picky_______

77. dog or cat: cat
78. short or long hair: short
79. sunshine or rain: RAIN!
80. hugs or kisses: KISSES!!
81. summer or winter: summer!
82. written letters or e-mails: written letters mos def
83. playstation or nintendo: NINTENDO!!!!@%)& 64!!!~! MARIOO!!!!
84. car or motorcycle: car
85. house party or club: neither
86. sing or dance: dance
87. freak or slow dance: FREAK


88. how are you today? late for getting ready!!
89. what pants are you wearing right now? betty boop pjs
90. what shirt are you wearing right now? ACTUALLY, 18 VISIONS. BUT NO ONE CAN SEE ME LOL
91. what does your hair look like at the moment? a greasy mullet lol
92. what song are you listening to right now? it's the law - mates of state
93. how is the weather right now? nice i think
94. who was last person you talked to on the phone? jon
95. whats the thing on your mind? sex
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I GET SO CRAZY, IIIIIII, dON'T KNOW WHAT TO DOOO.. MMMMmmmm... [09 Jul 2005|04:38am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

i'm gonna start band.
i need a bassist, a drummer, & a singer who plays guitar. (preferably a girl for the singer, cause i want it to be like tegan & sara.

this is not serious, just something to take up time.
& i'm looking for something to be important to me, cause what i have isn't enough.


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it's a silly time. to learn to swim. when you start to drowned. [07 Jul 2005|06:35pm]
[ mood | jealous ]

the best feeling in the world is meaning everything to someone.

boy i sure can't wait to feel that!

@ least you're loved & you know you mean everything.

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[ mood | artistic ]

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what's really funny is...when i was in maine, i saw mr. sillery at nubble light. it was probably the most funniest thing in the world. he was there with his wife, his son & his son's wife/girlfriend?. yeah. & his son was like "did you enjoy him?" & i was like "yeah" & he was like "yeah when he was there! hahaha" because he never shows up hahaha. it was funny.

& that's basically my vacation because me & jon didn't do anything due to my gay parents. we couldn't be left alone in the room, or sleep together.

& jon likes to wake up at 2am &..cuddle ;) <3

pictures from maine!Collapse )

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maine is way too boring. [03 Jul 2005|11:05pm]
[ mood | bored ]

if you're a slut, you need to deal with the consequences. i'm sorry. it really sucks, i know.
the truth hurts, doesn't it?

on a lighter note, me & jon are in maine right now. he's pooping as we speak.
it's alright. maine is wicked boring & everything is closed early. also, my parents wont let us cuddle in the same bed :'(

there was also a wedding here. & it was so cute that my mom cried. it looks like a lot of fun. they're all in the big hall thing, for parties. & really loud music is playing. i'm jealous & wish i were invited. they played hollaback girl !!! <3

the arcade closed at 9:30, the pools closed at 8:30.

we are very bored.

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after all that we've been through . . . i know we're cool ! ! ! <3 [30 Jun 2005|04:07pm]
[ mood | amused ]

last fourth of july i had to be home at 11, & joe bragel said "now who am i gonna kiss at midnight", oh how we laughed & laughed! & then laughed some more! silly bragel, that's new years eve!

does anybody have any good 4th of july plans?!

i'm going to maine sunday-tuesday. but that's it. i hope i see fireworks.

how about any good summer plans?!?!

cause i have a very uneventful summer planned out with jon, since he is my other leg & we are never apart now.
double dates are great.

i expect to see A LOT more of melinda &jeff because they are just like me &jon &it's cute &fun to be with them. &she is just so hawt . melinda ilu , text me , HANGOUTSOONBABY? ! YEAH . 978 GURL SUP ! . <333

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stolen from nadz cause i am bored. [30 Jun 2005|10:44am]
[ mood | amused ]

1) WHEN I WAS A KID, AFTER SCHOOL I: came home & had milk & cookies.

2) THIS ONE TIME, WHEN I WAS HIGH: i saw a plant book & asked if it was for the kittens, but before that, i walked in the room & thought dan had kittens in a box, but they were plants. so i would've said it high or not.... ;)

3) THE NEW POPE: looks like asshole.

4) I FALL ASLEEP EASILY: when i get my period.

5) I NEED MORE: luvin from my boi



8) THE UNITED STATES SHOULD CHANGE ITS NAME TO: iwgiweebbidbtfmo. (i wanna get involved with everybody elses business but i don't bother to fix my own.)

9) MY THEME SONG WOULD BE: i ain't no holla back giiiirrrllll


11) PRESCRIPTION DRUGS ARE: for people who have prescriptions to cure their whateverthefuck they need to cure.

12) I THINK ABOUT SEX WHENEVER: a man does. which is every 6 seconds.


14) THE LAST TIME I BOUGHT A PAIR OF SHOES: was a wicked long time ago cause i always by those dumb little scene ones that i cant wear in the summer cause they make my feet smell :(

15) IN ONE MONTH I'LL BE: maybe i'll have my license.

16) FOR THE LAST TIME: i wrote jon a love letter & he keeps saying "awww awwww awwww you're so kewt!!" so i'm never doing that again.

17) THE LAST THING I STOLE WAS: actually, i don't remember..

18) IF I WON THE LOTTO THE FIRST THING I WOULD BUY: a mo-ped for jon cause he wants one.

19) WHEN IN ROME: fuck will farrell.

20) IF ONLY I COULD GET RID OF: my UTI !(&%!)(#%&

21) YOUR MOM: she was cooking eggs this morning, & they exploded in her face. which is why i'm up before friggan 12. like how funny is that when you read it? but when you think about it, it's terrible. only my mom. lol

22) IF I WERE ON DEATH-ROW, MY LAST MEAL WOULD BE: filet mingon from the cheesecake factory because i wanna try it but i'll never be rich enough.


24) I MOSTLY USE THE INTERNET: to save me from boredom.

25) IF I BECOME PRESIDENT: i think i would be a wonderful president :)

26) I MOST RESEMBLE: audrey hepburn? i don't think i do. but old people & my parents tell me i look like her. i don't know. but i'm glad because i think her & angelina jolie are the most beautiful people evah.

27) THE WORD I SAY TO MUCH: i ain't no hollaback girrrrrrrrlllllll

28) VEGAS IS GREAT FOR: marrying britney spears <3

29) MICHAEL JACKSON: broke my heart :'(

30) THE SPEED LIMIT MEANS: 5 mph faster than the limit is really the limit.

31) WHEN I DIE, I WANT MY BODY: to be sent to some guy who likes to fuck dead chicks. i am a good lay duh.

32) IF I COULD GO BACK IN TIME I: don't wanna go back in time whatsoever.

33) THE LAST TIME I SAID "THIS SUCKS!": i say it a lot.

34) YOU OBVIOUSLY KNOW ME WELL WHEN: you start naming all the people that i don't like. which is pretty easy. because it's pretty much everyone!!! :)

35) TOMORROW I WILL: get my room painted green. but i'm nervous.

36) I SPEND TO MUCH TIME: doing nothing.

37) THE LAST THING I BROKE: my toey :(

38) OH YEAH, AND DON'T FORGET: i'm going to maine sunday til tuesday with jon <33

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[26 Jun 2005|12:30pm]
i've been grounded from the computer & my cell phone for a week.

the only person i can hangout with is jon & i feel like he's getting sick of me.

yeah that really sucks.

i wanna hangout with more people, so call me. my house phone : 978 663 9968, cause i don't know when my cellphone will be back.
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keep me from believing that i can, still jump off. no longer....no longer the same. [21 Jun 2005|02:57pm]
[ mood | drained ]

i've come to the conclusion that all of my billerica friends (the girls) suck.

i'm not complaining about this at all, i just want to clarify things, so people can understand why i am how i am. & if they don't care then fine. but they obviously do because they're talking behind my back like i'm a horrible person.

i respect the people who respect me. if you're fun to hangout with, then i'm gonna hangout with you. if you're lame to hangout with, i'll be very hesitant to hangout with you.

alicia, the scene goddess apparently, said i was too scene to go to shows. TOO SCENE TO GO TO SHOWS! THAT DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE!!! what does alicia know about the scene? probably nothing, other than she learned what she knows mostly from me. because i'm scene. i know i am. i don't think of it as a bad thing. because i'm not cliche scene, like a lot of people i know. & the thing is, i'm not trying to be scene to fit in with the scene crowd. i wear what i wear because i think it's cool. it just so happens that it's scene. i don't even like any scene people in my town. people i hangout with most of the time aren't even scene. so keep talkin'.

i'm really trying not to write so much so that it doesnt look like a huge mess that people will just pass on reading. because i really want people to read this, & see where i'm coming from. particularly alicia, but she never will see it. & i'm not telling it to her face because i'm getting all my thoughts out here. & i have a huge problem with fighting with people verbally because my brain doesnt work as fast as when i'm sitting here typing.

i've drifted from my friends over a year ago. you can even tell in my previous entries. it's not because i have jon. & we don't always fight. i wouldn't waste my time with someone if they treated me like shit. jon doesn't treat me like shit. & the only reason my mom, my dad, & all my "friends" don't like me being with him, is because he makes me happy. that has to be it, cause i can't see any other reason.

i'm content with losing everyone & everything, because in less than a year, everything in billerica wont matter to me. this is life, & changes happen; everything for a reason too. i don't need to have a best friend. i don't need to have girl talk. i hate girls. they're all backstabbers.

sometimes i don't even know what goes on in my head. i don't know if what i'm always thinking is too smart for anyone to comprehend, or too stupid. i do think there's something wrong with me. no, i know there is. but my parents haven't taken me to talk to someone. maybe because they know something's wrong. & they think that taking away my cell phone, grounding me, giving me 11pm curfews during the summer, telling me i do nothing to make them proud, yelling at me for stupid shit like not folding the clothes right away & misplacing things...they think that will make me learn? they think i am unhappy because of my boyfriend? are they out of their minds?

i hate being in my house. i hate being in this town. i hate anything to do wiht my parents, with people in billerica (not everyone, but most), with school... i really don't think i can take much more of anything to do with my mother. i thought maybe staying alive & staying in school would make her proud, because other than that i pretty much could care less whether she died, or i died. i don't love my life enough to care what i'm going to college for.. i don't love my life enough to keep everything i had (like friends).

i'd rather run away & start my own family. & raise my kid the total opposite of how my parents raised me. my own happy family..start my own happy memories, cause i can't remember mine. i don't care who disagrees with this, because in my mind, that's what i want.

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well my opinion is right. [21 Jun 2005|03:29am]
[ mood | dorky ]

knowing that i have absoloutely nothing to do for the next 2 months excites me.

i love not going to bed til 5am.

this is the best.

earlier, i watched white nose & the darkness. i got the darkness because on the cover it said it was the scariest movie & it'll knock you off your seat. w/e. well i'll tell you movie critics, it was a piece of shit.

white noise...was pretty scary. but too fake for me to be really scared.

i like really scary movies. i'm not gonna lie, i thought the exorcist *the first one* was scary (mostly at night.) but when you think about it during the day it's funny. yeah.

i've been noticing things in movies that are like other movies. like the ring, the grudge, & white noise. some of the scenes were like all the same.

wow i sound like a movie nerd.

well & garden state now that i think of it, behind the love story, it was pretty much dumb. i did like that movie a lot though.

star wars, is probably wicked over rated. i can make a humungous set of lazers & planets & fake alientype things & give them weird names like mungococtus, but i don't because it's stupid.

& what's up with remakes of movies? leave them alone.

okay that's it.

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YOUR RED LIPS, ARE READY 2 RIP!!!!!!^! [20 Jun 2005|06:27pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

Name: jasmine
Birth date: february 27th
Birthplace: boston
Current Location: billerica
Eye Color: the kind of green that doesn't make a big deal about itself (i'll give you sweet loving if you can guess what that's from!)

Hair Color: black with brown & blonde
Height: 5'3
Righty or Lefty: righty. sometimes ambidexdrous??2!%
Zodiac Sign: pissies
Marital Status: happily married.
Nicknames: jay, jazz, jazzy, yazz
Siblings: none!

What did you do yesterday? went out to lunch with jonny, then went playground hopping.
What are you doing tomorrow? not sure actually.
What are you listening to? expo '86 - death cab.
What country would you most like to visit?: i wanna start in ireland, to england, to france, to spain, back to france, to germany (esp. BERLIN), then through switzerland, all through italy, & then to greece. i'm not even joking. & i will do it before i start a family.
What are you most afraid of?: bees, UFO's, throwing up, & being alone in public.
What are you wearing? pajamas, duh.

What are you thinking about right now? what me & jon will be doing tonight.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: white
One pillow or two, cotton or feather?: 7 pillows, & i like cotton because feather pillows always smell bad & poke my face. then the feathers get all in the pillowcase & fall out & stuff. it just sucks.
How do you eat a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup?: i put it in my mouth & i chew it.

Understanding?: very
Arrogant?: i can be.
Insecure?: very
Interesting?: everyone has their own preferences as to what interesting is. but i don't make myself try to seem interesting; by saying stuff like: "i love photography & literature & the arts. i paint a lot. i make my own clothes & curtains." well pretty much cause i don't. but if i did i wouldn't use it as an excuse to make me seem cool.
Friendly?: only if i like your vibes.
Smart?: not book smart. psychologically smart & philisophically smart i would call it.
Childish?: obv. you are not fun if you can't be childish.
Independent?: for the most part.
Emotionally Stable?: not really. i'm a hypocrite in that sense.
Shy?: yeah.
Attractive?: no
Bored Easily?: yeah
Responsible?: i could be a lot more responsible if i had a car.
Sad?: right now? no
Obsessive?: yeah
Obsessive compulsive?: YEAH
Psycho?: YEAH

Your heritage?: 2/3 italian, .99/3 french canadian, .1/3 irish.
Your weakness?: when jon does his little boy cough. don't ask.
Your perfect pizza?: cheeeeeeeeeesssssseeeeeeeeee
Your current Mood?: bored
Your current Music?: say yes - elliott smith.
Your current Taste?: pizza
Your current Hair?: gross & messy
Your current Smell: COCO CABANA <33333

Your current Favorite Celebrity: eben, always <3
Your most overused phrase on AIM/AOL/MN: lol
The worst song you ever heard: anything by celine dion (sorry jess!) haha, phil collins, & terror.
The last thing you ate?: pizza
The last thing you said?: "okay bye"
The best song you ever heard?: there are so many.
The shoes you wore today?: my CHUCKS.
The most embarrassing thing you've done? i don't really think anything i've done is embarrassing, except squeaking when i'm talking. cause when i get allergies i do that a lot.
Your room is like?: it's gonna be green :)
Goal you'd like to achieve?: starting a fam <3

Fallen for your best friend?: no, sorry josh lol
Done something you regret?: nope
Loved someone so much it made you cry?: kinda yeah ;)
Smoked?: yeah
Broken the law?: yeah
Broken a bone? yeah recently my toe :'(, & now my knuckle i think
Cheated on a test?: nope
Played truth or dare?: yeah. i like dares ;)
Flashed someone?: yeah
Mooned someone?: frequently
Kissed someone you didn't know?: yeah
Been in a physical fight?: yah with my boys
Ridden in a police car?: nope
Been on a plane?: yes
Come close to dying?: i thought so when i had my kidney stone.
Been in a sauna?: yeah
Been in a hot tub?: YES OMG I LOVE THEM.
Swam in the ocean?: yes, & i'm not diggin it.
Done illegal drugs?: yeah
Been trashed or extremely intoxicaed?: not in a longgggggggg time.
Been called a tease?: jon likes to joke.
Gotten beaten up?: nope
Considered a life of crime?: i wouldn't mind being in the mafia actually.

You talked to in person?: my mom
You talked to on the phone?: jon
You instant messaged?: bailey
You had lunch with?: jon
You kissed?: jon
Who broke your heart? michael jackson i guess you could say :'(
You had physical contact with? what kind of contact? i gave steve l. a hug

Color your hair?: yepp
Have tattoos? not yet
Have Piercings?: yah but not enough cause my mom sucks.
Floss daily? sometimes i forget. but it doesn't matter cause you're only suppose to do it 3 times a week.
Own a web cam?: no. & if i did my nudes would be all OVER the internet :)
Ever get off the darn computer?: no because i don't have a car.
Like Parks?: i love them.
Like school?: no. i fucking hate my school. i really hate it. i wanna go to private school but i can't cause it's my senior year, & i guess you can't register? well it fucking sucks.
Collect anything?: yes ;)
Work?: no. & i like it that way.
Like shopping?: i love it & that's why i need to work.
Party?: i hate parties.
Smoke?: no
Sing?: no.
Have a crush?: yeah <33
Do you think you've been in love?: i think i am now
Want to go to college?: i used to, but now i don't.
Like high school?: DIDN'T I ANSWER THIS???
Want to get married?: YES!!!
Do you have a lava lamp?: i used to til my mom broke it. those things are so gay.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: yes millions.

Pepsi or Coke: cherry coke & that's it. grape fanta is good too.
McDonald's or Burger King: BK!! but it makes me sick...
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: black adidas :)
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: NEITHER.

Chocolate or vanilla: um...i don't know. i hate them both. welll chocolate's okay.
Cappuccino or coffee: iced coffee & coffee coolatas.
Chicken or fish: fish! <3
Boxers or Briefs: boxers
TV or Movies: movies
Dogs or Cats: cats
Half empty or half full: half empty

Made Out?: yup
Gone on a date?: yup
Gone to the mall?: hahaha yup
Made homemade cookies?: nope
Dyed your hair?: nope
Stolen anything?: yup

Aliens? AH YES. they're so fucking scary :(
Angels? no
Heaven? no
Hell? no
God? no. seriously, think about it. i'm sorry but anyone who believes some guy invented the world, you're pretty much retarded. but that's just my opinion.
Yourself? depends what it is i'm trying to accomplish.
Ghosts? yeah
Love? yeah
Love at first sight? indeed i do :)
The tooth fairy?: my mom?
Santa Claus?: my dad?
Cupid? no
The Easter Bunny?: my dad.

What do you want to be when you grow up? i wanted to be a psychologist. then i realized school wasn't for me. now i feel like being a fashion designer cause all the clothes i ever see sucks. except for a $40 shirt in abercrombie, but who wastes $40 on a shirt when you don't have a job? besides me. now i wanna just be a stay at home mom. cause kids who get raised with their parents always working are FUCKED UP.
Where do you want to get married? not in a friggen church. & i don't want a lot of people there.
Do you want to have a small or big wedding? small.
Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? maybe that trip around the european countries. maybe fiji. maybe curacao. who knows.
Do you want to have children? yes
How many children do you want to have? 1 or 2
What do you want to name them? audrey, lilian, elliott..ooh the boys are so hard...
Was this survey worth your time? yeah

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[20 Jun 2005|01:16pm]
i seriously need a pretty layout.
my layout right now is so ugly that no one will ever wanna even look at my journal.

someone should help me.

because i gave up on lj layouts 2 years ago
& i must be living under a rock because everyone's layout is so pretty.
where do you find the codes? :(
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[19 Jun 2005|11:55pm]
i need a sic layout.

someone make me one.
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anyone who actually gets their bikini/vagina waxed, i idolize you.

i absoloutely cannot do it. i don't know how anyone does!??!

i have purple dots now. i think i waxed out some veins.

i'll probably just stick to shaving & hair removal creams.

thank you.
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Clowne towne a single beauty [15 Jun 2005|03:53pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

all of a sudden i'm in a depressed mood right now.
maybe it's the weather. who really fucking knows.

this weekend is going to suck i bet. i was suppose to hangout with jon, josh & alicia saturday. but my parents are going away so i'm staying over alicia's, & god only knows what she has up her sleeve. she's so weird sometimes. & if i can't do something i wanna do, she wont tell me until last minute.

i've been looking forward to the plans we've established 2 weeks ago. they better not change, or somebody's face will.

i need way more women in my life as well.

& it was pretty cool how ally told me today "you better have time for me over the summer", & i was like "why wouldn't i have time for you?" & she's like "cause of jon". it's cool to have that feeling of knowing that all my "friends" talk about me not spending any time with them because i have a boyfriend, & that's all who i hangout with; because he's the only person who ever calls me, & he's the only person who can make stable plans without them not working out for some reason.

no one ever calls me, so i don't ever call anyone. it works both ways. & if you're gonna complain that i never have any time for you because i'm with jon, then maybe you should actually try calling me to see if i do have time. because i've been home every single week day. i've said this so many fucking times. what doesn't everyone understand?

this goes for jon's friends too. it works both ways.

(all of this is not to anyone in particular either, but if the situation ever comes up.)

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i can be just like eminem. [14 Jun 2005|12:29pm]
my mom is on the phone right now talking about dying.

good, maybe now she'll let me do things. & have a life. & not make me hate her all the time. but i've hated her since 6th grade, so i don't see that going anywhere.

maybe she'll ground me because i'm not even sad.

i feel no sympathy.

i must suck.

but i guess catherine can understand...
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